Asshole Alert Number 237

Randy actually said to me that he wanted to "find someone better."

Better. What a complete asshole. (And yes, yes I hope he reads this and realizes what a complete asshole he has been and at least tries to feel bad about for a second. I mean, what a completely MEAN thing to say to someone else.)

Although I totally understand that relationships don't work out, I really don't understand why he had to be so mean about it. Why he had to tell me that he wanted to cheat on me. Why he had to say that he "feels bad for breaking my heart." We knew each other for four months. Does he really think that my heart is so fragile and weak that after four months it is actually in breakable mode? Please. Jason broke my heart. Two and a half years is a long time for a heart to think it is safe. Four months is not, especially when one of those months is a complete and utter waste of time when Randy has been going around acting like a dickface.

I warn you women of the Americas: there are two Randys. One is super nice, fun, thrilling and hot. The other is sullen, mean-spirited, selfish, and cold. Stay away from both.

What I am upset about is the fact that I am great and wonderful and no one seems to realize this. Why are my friends and I the only ones to realize that I am funny, beautiful, fun and exciting? Why are all these men that I meet determined to use me and then toss me away like I mean nothing?

Why did Randy tell me he loved me and wanted to move in together and that "it would fine if I kept my name when we got married" if he didn't mean it? How in the hell can you possibly change your mind in the span of 5 days?

So, by now I guess you have realized that Randy and I broke up. I had told him last week that I wanted to break up with him, but I am too nice of a person. I always want to give people the benefit of the doubt and "one more chance." I wish I would have acted on my gut instincts because then I wouldn't be sitting here, allowing the mean things he said to me hurt me. On Friday, he told me that he doesn't want me to leave him, that he wants to try to make things work. Not to leave him alone, just to leave him be (whatever the hell THAT means, because he couldn't tell me). Then on Saturday, he goes out drinking with friends and realizes that he is attractive to other women! What a shock! He can sleep with someone else. So, then he realizes that if he feels that way, he obviously doesn't love me. Obviously.

But don't try to talk someone into not breaking up with you if you DON'T MEAN IT.

Seriously, why are my dating blogs all about how men do things that don't match what they want? If you want a girlfriend, then get one. If you want a fuck buddy, then get one. You just better pick me for the previous one and not the latter, because I don't roll that way.